June 2010
the ride.
close your eyes and continue to breath not by nature but by force; continue to breath and close your eyes;you don’t understand your need to breathe until you must do so by force; anything done by force is always appreciated way much more than something that comes naturally; as dose the simple task of a beat of your heart; something you control by breathing ; or bitch smacking...
ass-fucking-backwards.
when you are giving everything love has to offer you.do you ever get jelous of pain,
do you ever wonder what it is and have a desire for it
i know you miss something ince its gone , but cant you miss something you never had?
can you be addicted to something you never tried
[I DONT FUCKING UNDERSTAND]
where the root of greed comes from
what make someone want to experience something that can...
dont wanna hurt you ;you hurt wanna dont
-shelaysthere|confuse to what the next min holds| in lost thought and unconditional lust|feeling numb to the words of lust or the actions of caring|she rather not look him in the eyes| she dosent want him looking into loveless soul|death to all positive words| only being able to analyze the pain|wants to be so far gone in a fairytail yet clutching on to a nightmare of amillion dreams| love is as...
dad.
lets paint a picture
young girl; about ten years old;kinda short; shes sitting on her bed alone;hands over her ears as her parents argue; to young to understand the vocabulary so it all just sound like loud to her;when is leaves her room she see that everyone is mad;so she feels left out; lonely;wondering why shes not mad or upset like everyone else;she notices the silence for weeks;she is alone;...
yet
my life feels like its comming to A END-yet i breath
my heart feels like is comming to a SLOW BEAT-yet im still alive
i feel like i will be alne forever; i am not worth being loved
i will never have someone that will want to deal with my many flaws
no one will never think im worth being dealt with
my sould has been crushed with no hope for anything other
yet i love myself?
